Wednesday, 3 September 2014

好不寻常的日子。
我竟然开始惜福。慢慢爱上这些平静的日子,慢慢习惯了我曾经感到厌倦的每一天。
好多好想要做的事,好多想要的东西。可是现在已慢慢的在释怀-不论等多久多么努力,得不到的东西终究得不到。是你的就是你的,不是的话,多么努力地尝试都没有意思。
我还会常常想起我得不到得东西,当然还会感到伤心,可是我又能做些什么。又不是没有在努力过。。

总有一天,我会很高兴很高兴的:)

Saturday, 30 August 2014

睡不着的半夜想如果
想当初

其实我什么都做不了

Tuesday, 26 August 2014


傻子:) 
谢谢你!
With my sisters' and best friend's departure, with the rain,with the absence,with the empty house,with the leftover make up products and clothes..

I'm just feeling very,very sad.



Sunday, 24 August 2014

星期日乌云密布,又下了一场好大好大的雨,好多莫名的伤感。

Saturday, 23 August 2014

Was on my way home from KL when I've decided I want a change in life(sounds so dramatic haha) so I drove over to the most random hair salon and trimmed 4-5inches of my hair. Cut away my damaged hair and curls..man my heart aches so bad.

I'm always like that haha. It's not the first time that I have the sudden urge to cut my long hair. Then I always regret.


But my hair was once again healthy and SOFT(woah) just like before my first hair dye at Dec 2012. 

Gotta cherish moments like this.


Friday, 22 August 2014

stupid oral surgery

I don't know wheres all my time but before I realise it, second semester started. The first week didn't go so well cos I had an oral surgery which I won't call it a minor one cos to me its not -.-  Its my first ever surgery and I've underestimated it.
I was told that my wisdom tooth removal will not be like a normal extraction but a surgery cos the dentist will have to cut my gum blablabla. I know its gonna be awful but..still..SIGH.
If I knew all these will happen I wouldn't even ask to remove my wisdom tooth in the first place.

Half an hour of the painful & bloody surgery cost my parents a good RM800. FML LOL. When my mom asked the dentist wife how much would it be a week before the surgery she said a few hundred. A few hundred could be somewhere RM200-RM400 to me cos 'a few' means 2-4. When somebody said ''a few people'', 8 people ain't a few man. Anyways, its too expensive -.-

Secondly, I was told that infection in the wound area might happen. But now I have 3 big ulcers around my wound and the pain is really hard to take it. GOD DAMNIT I've just had tonsillitis 2 months ago and I tell you, its the most agonizing thing I've ever had yet. With my super swollen gum and painful ulcers in the mouth, not only I looked like a fool who has been hit on my face, I have to go through this pain all over again.
LOOK AT MY RIGHT CHEEK.

I look like i have something in my mouth. HECK I have to look like this for a week WTF.





I CANT TAKE PAIN. This is something I didn't know until I've had tonsillitis. I don't know how am I going to face more things in life and if I have worse sickness in the future I'll be dead. Or I rather be -.-


I am so angry right now cos I thought removing my impacted wisdom tooth would be a right choice and will save me a lot trouble in the future but right now its giving me a lot pain. My ulcers are killing me, my wound is a BIG mess, I can't chew with the right side of my teeth I CAN ONLY HOPE all these will be alright after a few days and no permanent cos I seriously am suffering.
So painful and agonising my week was so badly ruined by this stupid surgery that I want to cry.

SIGH.